I was really starting the day badly. I doubted everything and I was in a bit of a funk for the last few days. I just wondered where I was going in life an how I was going to get there. Things seem so uncertain and it's killing me. I just want to have something I know is for sure. The only thing that really brings me solace in all this is my Girlfriend Kameele. I don't know what I'd do without her. She makes me feel so much better about myself when I'm down, and she always believes in me even when I don't. I'm very lucky to have her and I love her with all my heart. I just want this all to work because I want to be able to give the both of us a better life than what we have. We live only to pay debt and I can barely afford it. I just want to find success in whatever I do and I need to work harder than I have been.
I had a few opportunities arise that could be something. I won't know until they pan out but wish me luck. I know I'm being hard on myself, but when I was younger I was so sure about everything. I had no real worries and everything was easy. Now I'm living life like it is. It's harsh but I know I can prevail if I keep strong. Things will hopefully go my way soon, I'm sick of living worried like a trapped animal. I need to make a lot of changes in myself because I'm no closer to achieving my goals now than I was 25 days ago. I'm gonna go to bed, tomorrow's a new day. Good night all.