Monday, January 10, 2011

Kieran 2.0: Day 10

Well here it is, the first 10 days of my blog experiment. I'm glad it's going pretty well so far but I'm beginning to lose sight of what I want this blog to do. I'm sad to say it but tonight I think it's a gripe blog... I had a pretty shitty hand dealt to me today and now I'm scrambling to fix a whole bunch of crap going on.

I called Sallie Mae, the bank that loaned me my student loans and I'm at the end of my grace period. I owe them 1169 dollars this week. That's another thing, I thought I had until February but that was my gov't loans that are due in Feb. The rest is due this week and I'm just a little mad at myself for making such a dumb mistake. I tried to lower my payments but even lowered, they still would be eating almost 95% of my income.

I don't understand what I can do. I can't afford these payments and I may need to get a forbearance on the loan, but that only helps me for three months. I need to find a better job and I need to work on my resume and art. I need to change my life but how am I going to find the time anymore. My job I have now has been good so far but now with these new loans bills coming in, I may need to either get a better or an additional job, either that or stop liking to eat. I just wish things could be easy, just from now on. I wish I didn't have to worry about money or family or competing for jobs that I actually want. I just want things to work out. I know that things seem really scary right now but there are people in the world who have overcome worse. All of this has made me very thankful for everyone I have backing me up. I swear though, other people are more sure of my skills than I even am. I'm thankful everyday for everyone's support especially on this blog and I don't mean to complain so much, but I'm just really nervous. I just don't want to lose everyone I have in my life because without all of my family, my friends and my amazing girlfriend, I really wouldn't have anything. Anything but crippling debt.

I went to the gym today and I tried to brainstorm a bit on new ideas but this whole loan thing really got to me to be honest. I'm hoping things get sorted out in the next few days and if they do I'll be sure to let you all know. Thanks so much for reading, see you all tomorrow.

-Kieran

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1 comment:

G.Terado said...

dont worry man, I'm on the exact same page with you bro. We must FIGHT!