Friday, December 31, 2010

Kieran 2.0 Day: 0 (Installing Software)

Hey, my name is Kieran Fallon and I’m a 24 year old art school graduate. I used to have a bunch of blog entries on this of my art work and other things that nobody read, so I’m hoping this will be different. I’ve decided to start a completely new blog, erase all of my entries and commit to making one entry a day. The purpose of this blog will be to document my life and hopefully change the path my life is going in for the better.

In the middle of 2010, I graduated from the Art Institute of Philadelphia with very little faith in myself and a completely broken spirit. I hate to admit it but certain teachers took something I loved and turned it into a huge open wound. I couldn’t bring myself to animate or really even draw for about two months. All their words echoed in my head, I had no confidence. I can’t believe I let them get to me, but they did. I thought of myself as a talent less loser who wasted over a hundred thousand dollars.

I struggled until October, when I finally landed a job. I thought my troubles were over, and I would finally be able to stop worrying about my debt and how I’m going to pay back my loans. While I have become a bit more financially stable, a sense of emptiness replaced the money worries. Now I have money, but I’m a 23 year old college graduate working at a kiosk in a mall for most of my waking hours.

I spend 3 hours commuting to work everyday on Septa. It completely sucks. I spend the time coming up with ides that I want to work on and ultimately never get to. I have thought of several cartoons and even an idea for a comic and have yet to even work one minute on any of them. At work I would tell people about the projects I was working on, mainly to try to convince myself that I was on the right track, but I couldn’t. I felt like a liar.

On December 14, 2010 I turned 24. It was something that I didn’t really know how to handle because when I was 18 I though I’d have everything figured out by now. I spent the day mostly by myself because all my friends were at work. I sat around all day, thinking about how completely unsatisfied I am with my life, and how I wasn’t doing anything about it. I’m one year away from being a quarter century old, and I had nothing great to show for it. I decided that 2011 would be different.

I came up with the idea of this blog when I was lying in bed thinking. I want to document my life for an entire year and hopefully change the way my life is lived for the better. I want to make sure that 2011 is different. I want to live my life the way I want to live my life. There are only three things that I really love to do. 1. Be around my girlfriend Kameele, my family and my friends. 2. Draw, animate and create art. And 3. Play video games. I want to one day have a job that will let me do these things as often as I want. I know this will take longer than one year, but I want this year to be the turning point in achieving this goal.

Tomorrow will be the first day of my mission. I have several goals I hope to achieve and I will achieve. I want as many people to read this as I can get for a couple reasons. First off I know I’m not the only person who feels this way and maybe what I do could help others. My other reason is if I fail at this I want it to be public. I am completely serious about this and if I fail, I’m epic failing.

Tomorrow I will have my list of goals as well as a picture of myself. One of my main goals is to lose weight so I am going to take a picture of myself everyday. I will document everything from drawings, to jobs I applied for, to even what I eat that day. Hopefully whoever reads this won’t see the same face a year from now as they do today. I’m hoping for the best because if this goes right, I will be a different person 366 days from today. Have fun tonight, and I’ll see you tomorrow night. Happy new year!