every day I wake up to go to that fucking mall is a day that I failed yet again. I have so much work to do and not nearly enough time to do it and it's my fault. I wonder if I'll ever get to leave my job or if it'll just fall down around me leaving me unemployed. I'm sorry I just needed to vent. I need a new job because this one isn't even close to cutting it. My last paycheck was so little that it isn't even enough to cover my private loan bill. I'm fucked and this job is draining me. I'm there so much but I'm barely working there. My commute adds an extra 4 hours to my day since it's almost 2 hours each way. I feel like I'm constantly traveling or at that kiosk. I need help, I don't know what to do anymore and I've lost faith in myself. I'm not confident anymore, in my work or in myself. I just want to be happy with myself, I want to pay bills without everyones help. I mean what the fuck did I go to college for?
I'm sorry about this negative early blog but I needed to get somethings off my chest. It's 7:55 and I'm behind schedule. Later everyone.
Screenshot of upcoming animation so it's not such a depressing blog.